HI EVERYBODY!!! :))) yup. i know. my blog is DEAD. so here i m. i'm gonna REVIVE IT!!! haha. sounds pretty stupid huh? i really hate hate hate my dad!!! i hate him!!! he has confiscated my hp just because i watched tv when he didn't allow me too. he expects me to study the very minute i step into my home. OUTRAGEOUS!!! IT'S DEFINITELY IMPOSSIBLE!!! i've wrote abt 10 lines of " YIFAN HATES HER DADDY!" i guess my dad will CRY when he sees wad i have written huh? i don't care. its just a way that i use to let out my Anger. well, different people use different ways to let out their anger. i really DID have an urge to scream at my dad. but i didn't. cause i know i would be the LOSER no point in doing it. i think i've really changed. changed not for the BETTER but for the WORST. i have an account in TAGGED. and for the past few days. 2 ppl added me. you know who they were? they were trying to FLIRT with me!!! one is from hongkong, now living in yishun, singapore and says he's 22 years old. he even showed me his photo. i sort of thought that he wouldn't show me his real photo but... i think he showed me his real photo. u wanna know why i tot that way? the photo he showed me was sooo UGLY!!! i tot he would show me a shuaige de photo eh. he was so UGLY N fat! ahhaaahhaaa... :D he kept asking me some un-interesting things. OH MY! the other one was an INDIAN! OMG!!! AN INDIAN!!! its not that i'm not into racial harmony. but. which CHINESE would want to stay with an INDIAN for the rest of her/his life??? if there's REaLLY sommeone. its either the indian is really shuai or he/she is TOTALLY NUTS!!! he even was so shameless that he showed me his face on WEBCAM!!! its ok if u're shuai. but, the problem is. U'RE NOT!!! HE WAS SORT OF NAKED WHEN HE CHATTED WITH ME WITH THE WEBCAM. i was like OMG!!! OMG!!! OMG!!! i'll show u the picture of the hongkong guy in my next post. he actually sent me his photo! P.S. the english common test is JUST TOMMOROW!!! i'm so worried abt it!!! :(

i've been to a person's blog. but, i'm not gonna tell u whose blog is it. i think i kinda discovered a different side of him. Normally, he would give ppl a feeling that he's really cool and full of vulgar words. i changed my opinion abt him after i've read his blog. he is actually a really sweet guy. i dunno if his blog posts r really written from his heart. but, i hope so. I REALLY DO. i think he's the kind of guy i like. but, there's something. HE'S SHORTER THAN ME!!! sometimes i really hope that i'm not tall. at least, can i b just a little shorter than the guy i like??? the world is like this. people who want to be tall r SHORT. people who dun wan to b tall, r TALL. n the worst thing is that, I'M NOT ALLOWED TO GRUMBLE A SINGLE WORD!!! :(((((

u c this photo?
i drew it!!!
its kinda unique and special huh???"
rouyi was drawing this kind of words on geography lesson a few days ago and i tot it was special and very nice!!!
so, i gave it a try!!!
how does it look?
i was supposed to be doing my geography homework when i suddenly felt an ARTISTIC URGE to do some art work.
:)))))
there was art this morning and we drew pencil sketch.
we had to draw a pair of sports shoes this is my MASTERPIECE!!!
Hahaha.
i spent a whole lot of hours doing this!
and in the end i got an A-
yupp. dats me.
Zilian-ing after my bath.
cos i've always taken pictures with my face to de camera face n never taken one dats not facing de camera.
do u understand wad i'm trying to say???
hope u do so.
nowadays i cant cum online very often mostly becos of my irritating dad.
sometimes i really hate him to the core
sometimes i really love him.
cos he restrains me on doing alot of things i want to do.
i cant sms in his presence.
and that wastes my 1000 FREE SMSES!!!
what for he sign me up for this M1 plan when i cant enjoy it???
i mean, EVERYONE smses, right???
WHY CANT I?
i've asked him y and he told me its becos he doesn't want all this smsing to affect my studies.
ok.
i know my mid-year results isn't that gd but it isn't that low either.
and i don't think smsing can affect my results.
anyway, i know what he does is all for my own good but...
I JUST NEED A LITTLE FREEDOM!!!

c this picture? its my shadow. i took this yesterday night after dinner outside on the way home.

INTERESTING???

ok.

i havent been posting for a long long time.

now.

i m posting now.

dun u ever say my blog is dead now.

de pic is me.

EMO huh?~

puiling took it without me knowing.

sometimes, i really feel she can be an outstanding photographer in future if she wants to.

yesterday my dad confiscated my hp for a night n in de morning he returned it to me.

he said i was always talking crap with my friends n wasting my time.

i know, he wants me 2 be studying all the time.

sorry, i cant do that.

i went for band practice today.

rouyi told me band was from 8.30am to 1pm.

as we had 2 b 15minutes earlier 2 fall in, i reached @ abt 8.15am.

i was rushing 2 band as i overslept.

n thanks to rouyi, i wasted my precious sleep n arrived @ such an early time when band only starts @ 9am.

so, i had 2 stand outside de room, waiting while sweating~

may was oso kinda early.

i sorta wanted 2 bring home my horn 2 practice as theres gonna b no practices on monday but i saw no one bringing home their instruments n i pictured myself bringing dat heavy horn 2 sch on wednesday.

no.

i'm not going 2 bring it back on second thought.

i was put into 3rd horn n de notes were damned LOW!!!

i was so comfortably playing de high notes when dis change had 2 come.

i mastered de concerto partly and this sudden change puts me at a loss.

de notes of horn 3 can put me to sleep.

i think i'm wasting my time on this world... all i do everyday is eat, sleep, watch television... ya, n all those recreational time-wasting games... i want to be a rebellious person n i just can't seem to do it. i don't want 2 be like a flower vase sitting on a table, doing nothing that does help. yesterday, i REBUKED my dad n it almost ended up into a heated arguement until i reflected. i feel that its everyday me reflecting. Both parties should reflect. i really hope that someday after an arguement or whatever, me n my parents can reconcile. Reconcile not because i apologised, it should be because both of us realised our wrongs n apologised to each other. Back to the happy days we had... i feel stressed. i haven't even felt this kind of stress during my PSLE. Maybe thats because i was still an innocent little kid before then and never seemed to have any burdens or things which i ever cared. Maybe its just a part of me growing up.

ROUYI N I `POMED` BANDD!!!~ :p u c, v were supposed 2 run 2 rounds around de sch after band bud rouyi n i escaped!!! i was like a stupid coward, afraid of being caught by benjamin or any of my seniors. i guess, i mustn't be a silly coward anymore if i really wanna b rebellious...